Making some changes in the New Year

Life ebbs and flows along, constantly changing and morphing you and those around you. There is no exception for me. Our recent move has brought on some changes. Some are good, and some are more difficult but not necessarily "bad." This past year I have become run down and depressed over some of the ebbs and flows; so even though I usually resist change, it is welcome this time.

A few of the good and positive changes are that I don't spend as much time on the computer, I'm moving my body more, I eat home cooked meals at home at the kitchen table with the kids, and I get to see Hubby on an almost daily basis. I've also begun reading to the kids every night again and spend more time talking with them. A couple of the side notes occurring from these changes are that the kids are better behaved and I am losing weight and finding it easier to get around.

A few of the more difficult changes are moving from a great school to a not so great school, losing my support network, and finding a rhythm to family life with six again. I have talked about the school issue in my other blog, and I think losing my network speaks for itself. I miss them all terribly. One of my friends is very ill right now and I am praying daily for him! As for the family rhythm, that is a little more abstract and I don't know if I can explain it. The children were used to having me at their disposal, and now they have to share me with Daddy. This especially speaks for the youngest. The Hubby and I both had our daily/nightly routines that we did and they were obviously each our own routines that didn't involve the other. It's been a little bumpy readjusting back to a "couple" attitude. I'm sure the boisterousness of the household is a huge change for the Hubby from his quiet barracks room as well. Things get easier every day, but I'm sure it will take some time and some mourning, if you will, over our old habits.

I guess one of the biggest things I'm trying to say is that I'm bored. My schedule used to be so busy and involved that I had to create a Sabbath Day of our own to rest and connect with God. We can now do that every day because there is just nothing to do. I clean house, I play with the kids, I play with the Hubby, (get your mind out of the gutter! OK so maybe you are half right), and I take care of the kids (including the 29 year old). I don't get that much adult contact anymore and it is proving almost impossible for me to form coherent sentences when I do get around other people. The conversations stall and I get odd looks, and then any potential conversationalists wander off to find someone who can talk intelligently. I'm usually left stuttering to the wind looking like a complete lunatic. Well, OK, that isn't too difficult for me to look like. I am what I am. Deal with it and love me anyway.

Hopefully I will find an ebb and flow into something that will help me grow and flourish again. I know I need to give it time. Welcome 2009...there is much to reflect upon - and plenty of time to do it.